A sad sunday...

Today is a wonderful day which is sunday and coincidentally also a thaipusam day... In the gurney plaza, that used to be very crowded had decrease since no ppl would like themself to stuck on a traffic jam....

Also, it is a day where my mom and my sister birthday... Well, since i have no girlfriend now, i used up all my money to buy skin care for them as present... It should be a happy day for me...

'demo neh'( but), yesterday, i keep thinking of her... my Ex... Thinking of her makes me sleepless... and every ppl know that as well... Cos some time it is the time where a human would find a day and reconfirm what had been done so far and decide whether it is correct or not to go on... That's why, i been thinking whether it is correct or not to let her go... All the frustrated feeling comes all together... I really miss her hug... Although we are still friend, but we seldom sms or even msn to each other... Only if i tried to find her.

She is a bad gal... But I fall for her... i love every bad aspect of her... That's why love is blind... She her feeling to me, she tried to save our relationship when i decided to broke and she made it... She made me madly fall in love in her, Then just give 2 stupid and unrelated reason to broke with me... She dont like to takes order neither advice from parents. She never listen to anyone advice if she thinks she is right... She is so selfish and most things she done put me in pressure... And yet i still love her...

However, every thing that i use now, have memories on her... Skin care, toner, Bag, Shirts, pants, shoes, wallet, all the cards apply togethers, watching movies, working environments, hostel... Road that we go togethers, Pictures... Too many memories in this 2 years... Almost every steps i take, i have a memories on her...

Although i decided to let her go, let the momories remains, let all the things go according to her requirements, trying to be happy, and trying to become a better man, sometimes it makes me feel pointless doing that... I can live without her, i can improve for my own sake, but where is my love? Where is the gal that i wanted to care with, to love with, to treat nicely with? Living for my own is the point, but living without any people i wanted to love, take care with, making me suffers... As the saying goes, " Eye have pairs, nose have pairs of hole, ear have pairs, hand leg also pairs, the only left singles are brain and also heart...We live in this world to find out our remaining pairs to live on..."

Maybe she is not my pair. Anyway, i am gonna let the time prove everythings on it... Just that i will still have to endure the pain in my heart... She in my heart just like a tatoo... forever and ever...