1st meets after broke

THis monday i have to fetch my father from airport after work... However my father says that the flight will delay and tell me to wait... From 10.15 until 11.00 pm.. When i on the way to fetch him... My mind come out an idea that to find my ex gf Min Chea... Then my heart starts pumping hard... I am struggling whether i should find her or not...In the end i decided not to think too much and go according to my feelings which is go find her.

When i reach i gave her a surprise that i don't think she like. We talk a lot in the walkway...During the conversations, i get to know more about her... after the absence of me... I realize that she lost her attention in continuing her study... She was just hanging out her remaining time...Enjoying the remaining College life.

And 1 more things, i know that there is some boys begin tackling her... The one very obvious de is the one older than me 3 years her 4 years... A working adults... She mention everything about his good compare to me... After i listened from her i felt no sad at all but i have a great dissapointment of my previous performance... Even i have a chance to change now...When she mention about my past, she was with angry and dissapointment feelings... I am helpless with it because i really dont want to be the man in love and in living together having not same characteristic. I prefer to treat her as nice as possible and long lasting not because of i wanna tackle her then i try to be nice... The guy treat her very nice from every point of view... From fetching her, let her spend, give her suitable comfort and commit some sacrifice just for her... I admit that if i were a gal i feel touch by it. If really the guy is true to her, i will bless them... But if he is the one who before and after two characteristic i sure wont let him go...

Min Chea, for right now i am changing. Since the pain you given me... i grown up...i know that i have no right to telling you i love you forever, i still depends my parents to live on, i still not matured enough and i still lack of experience of getting know partner requirements. To be honest, although i have been in twice love,its like you the first love for me. I promise myself that i wont let my 3rd love partner,(probably is you because i still have the mean to tackle you back.)suffer what you have suffer before... I will love her with all my heart and this i promise you... If the 3rd partner is you,i wont make the same mistake again.

For right now, i really hope that i can take care of you,as a very very best friend like jacyline and Vily as long as i in Penang and you in Penang. You can choose to become independent, but for me, I realize that even a woman is independent enough, it still need a man by her side to take care of her. I really mean it. Even you are not my partner now, but my heart wants me to take care of you, cos for me, every step you take is too fragile, enough for you to get hurt... You look like the one who deserve care, protections from man.

I guess you dont even know the existence of this blog.... Dont even know what i wanted to do for you... Never mind...