Although i know that semester 3 will damn boring for me. but i think i am gonna fully utilize the time for playing GAO GAO in penang before i go to KL. mayb i go clubbing, mayb i use the swimming pool in TARC, i think there's a lot of thing to do as long as i have money and time^^V...point is,,, no work, no money... and i think that i seriously need a gal, it doesn't matter whether it is a gal but for a boy its is hard to concern like a gal concern right? its weird to think of demanding a boy to do a gal's nature. anyway, back to the point, i seriouslly need a companion lolz.. i felt that i was too lonely... even playing games was not able to attract me. even dota, maple, ps3 doesn;t works on me. This is the first time i experience this kind of thing happen to me. I need some1 to talk.. that's important.
Lately, i met a Maxis staff at gurney plaza. enquiring bout the postpaid plan for family Value plus plan. However, the person who served me turned out to be my talking partner... its like i know him for long long time ady, we even talk bout things that i only talk to my best friend. What surprising is he even can provide advice thats benefits me in countering this situations... when i ask him where he study, he tell me butterworth chung ling.... My response only 1, W O W.
Well, for the plan for this holiday, i think i need to go KL twice since the demand for my housemate and also classmate... although it might be wasting a lots of money, thinking that going KL twice... however, deep in my heart, i felt that i was so happy cos this really determine that i was a friend to them... without my existence, they would lose a fren to go KL. I felt relieve since then cos i really lack of confidence of gaining trust in all my friend's heart... i don't know, since FORM 3 which is my DARK YEAR, my frens start to boycott me. at that time i was alone for whole years. But it let me have ntg but choose to study since the book is only fren to me and lead me to good result in PMR.
For me, only in love, i felt that my existence to this world is important. well, at least to 1 person that i am extremely important to her. But now, she is refusing to have love , to have a boyfriend, she intended to be single and not available for temporary. Initially i was hurt and even torture myself for almost 2 weeks which is also between the CNY. With that mood who expect to won money with that the morale is almost neglectable?? I lost quite a money for that... i know that deep inside my heart i really love her... even she is a bad gal, teaching me a lots of bad stuff, wasting money... but i felt happy... and i believe that love is blind. if i was given a second chance i would treat her better than before... Probably in the future... she said!
To me, is this broke a good news for me? or its a bad news? it depends for my heart to determine... To me at least we can try for a distance relationship, never try never know... but she chose to stop here. No choice since she is have such hard heart. i Need to nego with her...
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