I ain't single anymore

HI WORLD,

It's been age.... That i didn't update anything about myself. Can't help it. Life in UK is so so so much fun that i don't have time to stay EMO and blog. Anyway, this post is to announce myself that i am no longer single. After 2 years and 9 months of being single. I always told other that i've been using 1 and a half year to fix myself, trying to heal the scar left by ex and spend the remaining time for preparing myself for a Mrs RIGHT. Well, thank GOD. thank JULIET... i found mine now... She's kinda pissed off when she saw my old blog. I didn't blame her actually. It's just a process of getting to know me more. B-)  

The used to be special wan at particular stage, especially the stage between 1 year and a half is over... Long over before i can recall back. Oh well, as i said in the ancient post. EMO is propotional to the frequency of blogging. Ppl feeling emptiness,lonely,moody, wanted to spit out and find someone to lend an ear but in the end find no one suitable to talk to. So, posting in blog is the other alternatives. That's why blog is matter to me for that moment. Like for now, Wake up in the morning go to work, after office hour go gym/training/2nd job, after back is ady 9pm. Spending the remaining time with Ms J is enough keeping me enlighten my current life.

Oh, last weekend i receive shocking news. That my ex has married on 11 11 2011. Below the term "you" will be refering to my ex. You hurted me so much and i've hated you for the past 1 and a half year... Still, after that i figure out that my heart do not feel better hating you. Instead, i treat you as a guest to teaching me smtg valuable in my past makes me feel even more better. I can't live happily with a heart always hating ppl. And i wish you all the best  of your remaining life spending with your partner. 

Well, i suppose this will be probably the last time i blog on the year of 2011. Will be even more rare post starting next year. 

My parents kinda worried on my relationship at the very beginning cos they had saw me hurted so much from previous relationship. But now seems to be more concern about my wallet as mine is kinda distance relationship. To me it's ntg but to them it's another story. Don't worry mom and dad, I'ma big boy now. Big boy comes with big responsibility. I can handle that. No prob.

For Ms J, if u are seeing the post now, feedback me ya. I would love to see your reaction. Don't worry i won't talk much on you as you probably will see me post those song, chords, lyric more than my post starting now.  

"You told me 

I don't need a perfect one i just want someone who treat i'm the only one 

that is how you see the love

and i say

I'll be your only one and i promise you that i'll love you forever

that is how i love you"

Lyric that cross my mind... I gt AR to work on this weekend already. To complete this song. wohoo!!!!


NB: many thanks for a person name 叶子 to correct the Mrs and Ms pronounciation.

Life at UK

Oh dear,

It's been centuries and more since i last updated my blog. Well, i've been busy in UK so i didn't have chance to blog.

I told myself that i am gonna blog about the first time flying oversea during the airport stuff and I haven't done that even though it's ady 1 month.
I told myself that i am gonna blog about things new, different in UK in the next few days after i reach UK and i didn't.
I told myself again that i need to write about the life after things get stable in UK. The real life in UK with extremely low budget on eating but high budget on shopping.

There it is, I ady finished 1 subject and now it's another subject and later on 2 o clock we are gonna start assignment that due to today as well. 8 hours for assignment completion.

This lecturer, Karl Jones is terrific brilliant. It is also the first time i am taught by a expertise in beer, PHD in beer to be precise, a professional photographer, and also a control engineer. WOW!!!

Okay, i am lazy now so TATA!

Checklist on my Ideal GF

Hi, it 2.30 in the morning... Normally, in the age of 18 i would say, the night is still young, let's have another few round of DOTA, in 19 i would say This IS ONLY just the Beginning... At the age of 20, I say i still have more quest to go. At the age of 21, i say i got a Final Project assignment to go. Now at the age of 22, i would say why the heck i cannot sleep? I gotta sleep early for the sake of my face and my health... Guess i can't compete with age huh. Anyway, just now while rolling on my bed, i was thinking about my future girlfriend, or perhaps i say IDEAL girlfriend. Then it pop out in my mind to have a Checklists.  I know it's kinda impossible to have someone fulfill all the requirement and THAT's why i say IDEAL. Forget about that CAO CI BAI blogspot messing up with my previous post and i lose 1 articles...

Eh herm~ Ladies and Gentlemen i now present the IDEAL checklist of mine:

Checklist No 1: Acceptable Looking/Pretty.
-Yea yea i know that u guys will just probably say inner beauty more important but in this world we need to be presentable so Acceptable looking is not a high requirement. I need it as we meet friend/client/parents/cousins/ basically human being, we need to be presentable.

Checklist No 2: Acceptable body shape/prefer thin gal
- I got 2 ex gf, both with almost same body shape which is in the range of baby fat~ So i think it is not dick/bad to have the third/last gf with thin body shape.

Checklist No 3: Don't eat seafood/ a vegetarian
Basically, it's just a checklist. I don't eat seafood so if that's possible i would want my girlfriend to have same taste as me. [though it's kinda impossible]

Checklist No 4: A bit from music background/prefer gal like singing
I like music. I like singing and i learn musical instrument such as Guitar and keyboard. Imagine that i have a girlfriend who likes singing too, then i'll be the one playing the chords, finding suitable keys for her and feat with her. It is so DAMN awesome ain't that?

Checklist No 5: Not from ALLAH or Christian Background.
Eh, basically i am ok with both but my parents especially my dad, he ANTI chirstian due to some reasons. So to make both parents and gf having good relationship, this is a Must checklist.

Checklist No 6: Able to communicate well with my parents
Well i think this really important checklist and i believe most of the lover would want that. My father face looks a bit fierce, but he's nice. And my mom got some humour that's really funny. So yeah i don't think this checklist is hard to achieve.

Checklist No 7: Shares similar hobbies, and topic/ Infinite topic to tell.
This is the most important checklist. A lover must be able to communicate well between each other.

Checklist No 8: Complete their studies at least in DIPLOMA level.
Some think that this is crap, ridiculous checklist but i say it's reasonable. I got a Ex gf, who's unable to complete her DIPLOMA, and so there's always some stupid arguement when we talk about logic... She just cannot explain the reason in most move taken. [or i think she spare too many lies to me until she don't know how to cover]

Checklist No 9: A gal that is not from my friend circle nor colleague nor classmate.
Basically this is my personal taste as i don't feel like having a gf inside my friend zone. Cos is we have some serious arguement, and there it go involving my friends inside and in the end making worse the relationship bet my friend and me.

Checklist No 10: Gals that is independent
I have a ex gf who is extremely dependent on me and giving me a hard time once so i wouldn't want the coming to be the same. One things that i like independent is that i can easily count on her in anyhing, wouldn't have to worries every single crap stuff.


I think that's all for my Major 10 checklists. Will add more soon. NOW u know why i still don't have girlfriend... You can say that i am super choosy, but what to do it's a lifetime partner and i want it to be Good!


PS: can blogspot return my articles to me now? I don't wanna waste another 2 hour time to recall back and repost.

What the FUCK is the reset?

You hear the title! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE HELL? WHAT on earth is this???
I wrote 2 articles... putting 3 hours efforts on it. AND WHY THE FUCK OF GOOGLE RESET MY PAGE???????? WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?

Another milestone

So, This is it, month of May~ I reach the end of the checkpoint of my life, gotta evaluate no matter it's good or bad. It's just like the end of another semester and we'll have exam very soon to see our improvement.

Until now, I live with no Big regret.


So this is the latest me. The hair grow so long until i cannot recognize me also. So better cover it with a newly bought CAP.

Currently, i am still at KL~ I hate KL weather, enviroment, traffic congestion, cars, lifestyle, some KL ppls etc. Yet, i'll somehow miss KL very much. KL is a place where all ppl come and gather here to accomplish something. I learn how to play keyboard at KL also, successfully acquire a skill that is not bad for the beginnner, just nice for  amateur but bad skill for rookie. This is how i judge my skills. My friend once said, KL itself sucks, but i'll miss KL not because of the enviroment, but the friendship we made here. If all friends gone back to their respective hometown, there's no longer a valid reason for us to stay at KL.


Okay, time to pack things up. I got a whole mess to clean up before going back.

An japanese food fair event shokiya

Take a look at this pic... the mark that all those boxes and furniture did to me...... Gonna explain more later. 

Peace thinker

Today i watch a gal sit in my truck during way back. And erm~ i felt like the moment is so nice and that moment is really an eternity for those who treasure it. I really wanna convert those feeling into a song. But then my vocabulary is too hard to create one. 

Towards the end of the holiday/part time free lance job.

Well, 7 more days before my free lance job officially ends. I have to say after exam i do get involve in lot of free lance job. Here's the summary of the job so that i can sort of recall back in the future.

1st job after exam b4 CNY- Sampling Promoter for Chimera.
Details : Well, that is the first time i work as sampling promoter. I found out that it was an easy job. This company don't even require you to punch card. Means if u are late you have no penalty. I work for Anlene creamy and Minute Maid sampling. Well, at first i still prefer Twister more than the minute maid. However, now i've changed my mind. Why? Because I DULAN twister big boss which is a malay. I dunno what his name but he's definitely arrogant. He once say that we do not need to vote of the chinese. As long as the 70% of malay vote for him Titiwangsa still belongs to him. Besides, twister pulp is no longer in the big quantity. It was so little and for me is barely visible. And i give up on supporting Twister. Instead i am buying Minute Maid, less sugar more pulp, contains vitamin C and i like it. =)

Lesson from the 1st job: I get to know Minute Maid and in the end support Minute Maid. Knowing a bunch of tian tian mandarin promoter is truly an enjoyable experience.

2nd Job after CNY - Mcd Breakfast Supervisor
Details: My job scope is to receive voucher from T2interactive and then distribute to my crew. Initial pay is 1.4k but in the end increase to 1..7k. It's quite a nice job as i keep taking the Mcd breakfast and it saves quite a money for me. The only troublesome matter is at the very beginning where all the crew haven't stable in their respective location yet.

Lesson from the 2nd job: I get to know PJ area more. Bandar Sri Damansara, Kota Damansara, Bandar Utama. Also, i get to know how to use google map and my OVI map more.

3rd Job during my work as Mcd Breakfast supervisor -  Yakult Sampling promoter
Details: My second sampling promoter job. To tell the truth i don't think i learn much from the job also. And I quit after a month of March. This is just an additional $$ for me when i work as Mcd supervisor.

Lesson from 3rd Job: I get to use time for parallel income.

4th Job during my work as Mystery shopper -  hiruscar
Well, this is a really big bonus money for me. WHY? Because initially i plan to go for Mcd job then Vaseline Job then wait to go UK. However, i did apply for the post before i get the Mcd job. Luckily i decided to attend the interview if not i would have to say bye bye to RM1k. =) Actually net profit i only earn bout 700 bux but it's really fun to go back to hometown and accompany my dearest mother. The job scope is to test the pharmacist whether they are promoting Hiruscar product to me o not. If yes i shall reward them with RM30 cash voucher, either KFC or jusco vouchers.

Lesson from 4th Job: I get to know how to use google map even more and GARMIN from my father. I know  3 sunshine supermarket at Penang finally. sunshine square, sunshine farlim, sunshine time square. I get to meet such a nice Director from Marverick which appear to be a female. =) Actually i kind of like their company as compare to T2interactive.

5th job for Vaseline driver cum crew - Driver
This job is actually the first job i confirm once i back KL as soon as the CNY finish. Not the Mcd job. Well, the pay is not so attractive as compare to T2interactive. However, the job scope is quite fun and thanks to the previous job that keep forcing me to use google map, searching the location for sampling is not a problem for me. Although the pay is moderate, but i get to know a bunch of gals and to be exact is 15 gals. Of course i can't get to know each and every of them but i can tell that i already know more than 50% of them. Some gal really are noisy. Some are so my cup of coffee and tea... Too bad most of them already own a boyfriend. Guess all the good stuff are already being occupied eh... >_<  There are some bad things happen during the event. First is the launching of Ipad2 on the first week Friday and i get so obsessed of having one right away. Second is i get complain by some idiotic neighbour of my place when i park the car at the roadside. Oh yeah i forgot 1 thing. I drive a 4 wheel truck, FORD ranger... Si beh cool man. It even has turbo that allows me to pick up very fast [big car usually pick up very slow] when i hit the acceleration pedal really hard. Also, there's 1 gal i found out that she's so..... And i kinda fell for her. I don't know why but for sure this is a feeling i haven't feel for quite a time. mayb 2 3 years.... Ahah!!

Lesson from Vaseline driver: I learn that some gals are quite talkative. I get to drive big car/truck. And i get to know a bunch of gals. =)


Well, i am gonna ask those gals for hanging out mayb cheong K very soon. =)
Till the next post. =)

In the middle of nowhere

Dear readers, i am back. Please accept my apology for not updating my blog. This blog is suppose to write my lifestyle from i am 19 yrs old. Yet, as semi graduate student i am too busy to blog. Once i said that blogging is a place to release all tension, pressure and a place to confess when the mood is bad. Blog is also a sharing of my lifestyle. For once i throw a statement saying that EMO is proportional to frequency of blogging. Can't say i don't emo these day. But there are more things that i am trying to find out rather than spending my time emoing.

First question i would like to throw to myself! How do you define a person success? Lots of money?  Tons of PHD? Having grandchildren at a very young age? Many people would choose Money as a reference to measure a success people. Yet, how many rich people exactly do live a happy live with that money that they have? No doubt, no money = no life. However, too much money = living a miserable life.

If i choose money to measure my success, why am i still studying? We all know that we can earn more when the business narrow into black market, such as gambling, clubbing, beer stuff like that. However, why is that the Conscience of mine won''t allow me to do that business?

We are indeed live in a world that's full with deception. If given a chance i would like to do the job that suits my interest. However if the job that suits my interest will never become a successful person measure by money? What'll u choose? Interest or Money?

There are lots of opportunities out there for me to earn points to success. But the point is how much time you want to spend on pursuing those success path? If it consume 24 hours of your day to success what'll you choose? If you know that the world will no longer be that simple once u reach that level what'll u choose?

We all know that the approved system that being implement by human race to educate among us is through education. We let our children go to school, learn all neccesary stuff, get cert, Degree and hence lead us to the endless working hours in the office/lab/factories with decent salary each month. However, why is that this system still make people unable to success? If we know that following this system 90% will keep on the trend to dead end and why are we still following the system? Why are we commiting suicide on our success path? Before this end we'll need to go back on how do we measure people success.

If we look at our parents, grandparents perspective, their way of measuring one success is that their son/daughter manage to find good husband/wife with healthy child as well as to get a stable job. However, the stable job can be anything like Chef, Engineer, Doctor, etc. Their income in MYR on average will very from 2k to 50k. We assign these people as A. However, what if i tell u that some people B they can earn more than triple of the maximum amount they earn per month in a day?  By compare people A and B using money as reference which of them are more success?

I am going to graduate soon and almost been through the typical system the society gave to me. Yet i am still wondering here and there, seems like i've wasted 20yrs of my life following the system that leads me to a decent life. However, without the system how can i become myself today?

So here i am still wandering around in the middle of nowhere. I wanna lead people, and at the same time i wanna be lead by others. I wanna pursue my interest as my career, however i know that it's a little bit too late for that. I enjoy travelling and i do not want to used up 24 hours of my time to pursue on the success path.
Guess i just need to figure out again on my own, searching with an answer that's couldn't exist in this world.

Working days after CNY

Haiz... The first few day when i reach KL, am so free, bored till i gotten insomnia for not getting a confirm job that time. I even learn myself a D key chord progression....With the boringness that i have. Luckily Mcd job come in. Now, i get involved in 3 jobs, yakult promoter, Mcd Supervisor voucher distribution, and also Mystery shopper, where i get so damn busy two weeks ago. The main task for now is Mcd voucher distribution job, and every monday, wed, and friday evening i work for yakult promoter @ 1U, and at the end of March, i am going to work as Mystery shopper. I will squeeze every minutes that i have to make sure that i can handle these 3 jobs with minimum problem. That's the real challenge that i have to overcome.

Talking about Mcd work, i can only say that the first 15 days kills me. F**king crew comes in and out...And in average i used up topping up my fuel in 4 days...which around RM15 per day. I haven't calculate the tol yet... Even though the salary has increase from RM1300 to RM1700, but according to current spending on the fuel i may not earn more than RM800 towards the end of the job. Shitty work, eh.. Luckily i took up some Mcd breakfast with amazing price.

Next to yakult job. Hence, i am declaring myself to be the first male promoter ever in yakult. Actually it's nothing special, i still get the same $$ as the female promoter, except that i am the first guinea pig male hired in yakult.... Actually the first day i work is on last friday. And as Nicole guided my through the whole process, i am so surprise that i need to count grand opening stock, including the kartons , as well as telling each and every customer that comes in, which is kind of embarassing at initial thoughts. However still, after about 10 minutes, i begin to get used to the job. I found out that job is kind of relaxing as it wont use my mind, and i enjoy watching pretty women that passby. And somehow i notice that asking each and every customer that passby is not a hard thing as in my hometown, as PJ area the citizen are so civilized, until their response given to you is quite comfortable. Compare to Mcd work, everyday i woke up early in the morning, i have to go office take voucher, then manipulating the best route that i can to give voucher, teach the new crew all stuff, planning when to give voucher, thinking what answer is best to tell colleague... After all this stuff, i found out that being yakult promoter is kind of a timeout to me, which i no need to think so much about it. And i have to say i enjoy engaging two jobs at the same time.

Now turning on keyboard lesson, i feel so disappointed. I attended two lesson, and i found out that i am stuck in a middle of nowhere, and the pace is moving way too slow. Jason told me that i have the beats problems, Left Right finger changing problems etc. And i am so down. I don't know how to improve further with the limited practice time that i have. I want to use learn more things in a shortest time, but it seems to be quite impossible unless i get rid of my problem. Haiz....

Oh one more stuff, about the intel interview i attended earlier, i found out that it's quite challenging. They told us that if we are selected, they will contact us in 3 weeks time for attending the second interview... And so a week has pass. >_< Man this took forever...

Rabbit year celebration Part 2

Well, Star Cruise Libra....
RM107 standing pax (with genting card)
RM137 standing pax (non genting card holder)
RM170 per pax for sleeping.

That's all for the price list. I think it's better to refer to the facebook album. still, i upload photo here.
Basically my finger are too tired to explain this and that. What i am going to say is i lost RM160 there... >_<
What to do the minimum bet is RM50. I have no choice. Actually i am capable to lose more or gain some profit... But the problem is i bought RM515 Clinique products (for me and my mom) before going there. Making my wallet so thin even before entering casino. What to do??? I should quit this hobby now i think. Harm for health, and my money... Well, a picture worth thousand words, and let the picture explain to you. More info check my facebook album.

Oh there's one thing... My careless sister, not the one above... It's the other one, she lost her card... and upon reporting the card lost a sum of RM118 is already being used by other people. This is a lesson for her to learn, as she is going to further her study in Taiwan. However luckily, we pay only RM20 or RM40 as the massage gal recognize that we are not the one who buy the bottle, and she come out with the remaining money for paying the bottle for us. And honestly speaking, this is the first time i encounter such kind heart China Gal. Here my case study below:
Background: Gal from China. (you can know from the newspaper about given false hope to work at M'sia)
Career: Massage gal (even more obvious, dude. Just review back at the police case, selling their body...)
Surrounding activities: Gambling (those customer who win a lot, sure buy them for night or smtg lidat right)
Results: Willing to pay for us... It's like 万中无一.... Lucky for my sis and my dad to meet such nice gal.
This shows that Resort World company benefits are so rich.... 90% of the crew are from other country and 70% of them are from China.


Ting Dong, times up and that's all for the new year report. I have a really fun new year celebration. But it's time to face the society... Job are sure difficult to find eh.

A Lazy start up for Rabbit year in Blog - sampling promoter journal. =)

Wow, it's been really while... Guess i get hook out with others stuff too much.. specificly talking is about finding job. Everyday just stare at the website, searching one by one the suitable job that meets my requirement.

Chinese New Year, too much stuff to talk and to share with, guess i need to find a slot for made up.

Will update soon. {i hope}
As i promise to myself that i will update the blog... i finally pick up myself to update it. Now where should i start eh... Alrighty, let's starts with the part time job when i was in hometown.

On 21st January, i work as a sampling promoter. What kind of sampling eh? Well it's minute maid.. Whee.. At First i don't know a thing about the Drinks and i felt that it taste so so only, tropicana twister better. Well, since i've become representative of Minute Maid, i cant help but promoting it. It's friday and i do the sampling at Pasar orong G-Mat. Very Odd name... it's some kind of shop where all the Malay hawkers buy all their stuff there. Well their eggs, bihun, rice are consider cheaper than tesco, carefour, the big store, if there's no promotion. At the first day of my work, i cant help but to analyse each and every customer reaction one buy one, using the skill that i've learnt in TARC EIS II... >_< Aiks, here update a photo of me wearing Minute Maid T-shirt..

The expression looks Kinda Weird. But it's the best pic that can show that i am wearing Minute maid Shirt.


The continuous 5 days i been arrange to sampling there. So basically that's the end of story. [lazy elaborate]


Next Task, 28 January, Friday again... I've been tell to go Tesco BM as Anlene Sampling Promoter. According to my agent, this Anlene task very LAKU eh... All people wanted to work that. Why i'll explain later.



28 January is a horrible day for the first half time.... Struggling to construct the booth.... Sweating continuously  and used up 1 packet of tissue... I checked in on 11.30am, and as the result, the booth's only successfully open on 1.30pm... and another half an hour for making the Anlene beverage...2 o clock as result... Phew!!!
After settling all stuff, counting the stock it's about time i meet some new friends.. Whee again!! Wow, i can only tell you that Tesco BM is really crowded... All promoters crowd....HAHA..Got Tiger promoter lah, Cheetah Promoter lah, Yu Ean Sang Promoter lah, Calsberg promoter lah, fiesta Promoter lah, Coffee Mate promoter lah and last but not least Lu Kam Promoters. It'll took me years to introduce their name one by one. Luckily i am the second eldest among all. And basically most of them are STPM or SPM ex candidates waiting for result... Then we talk lo... From their conversation, i get to know that the pay of my Anlene is RM120 per day, as compare to other sampling project, offers only RM75... It's kinda shame for me as i need others to tell me the pay...Hehe!!! Eh, on that 3 days of work , of coz i won't work for ntg... I get basically all the girls FACEBOOK. Whee again... (beginning to become more and more hiao kang)

Then the last two days i been transfer to Ezy Hardware for Minute Maid.... Man, it is super duper boring there.... No promoter to talk, and the worst case, not much people willing to drink even the sample cup of Minute Maid. All day long i am just longing to meet the break hour and go to AEON jusco, which is 2 min drive from there. I've spent  1 hour walking here and there only.. The most Memorable stuff that i can remember is that day i took 2 roti papa despite my fullness is there. Reason being is, after tomoro the price increase from RM1.80 to RM2.00. It cant be help as KL area ady increase the prices. So i took my last RM1.80 Roti Papa there. =)

 Well after that, going to erm the CNY eve... Which's my grandmother bday... It's not an ordinary birthday as my grandmother is 90s now... they said 90大寿... All of our cousin knows, the one who dunno is my grandmother and we plan to give her a surprise big party. Here's the pic tagged in the facebook.

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO: my laugh is kind of idiot ignore it pls... >_<


Okie... Chinese New Year now. We have a family photo. Here.

And basically the event on CNY chu 1 is the same. Getting angpau... Hah!!!

Next i would skip to chu 3, where my family visit mt father side relatives. We have photo there too... It's really big.

Thanks to zyn xeng the nikon series DSLR... (pls omit my face expression again)

Chu 3 night is also very interesting night... with some regrets... I went to my agent house, which is a wrong choice because she din gave us angpau and i dunno why and she force us to finish the steamboat, which i juz took that afternoon. And i went to chiu wen house, which i din earn angpau also as her parents haven't back... This two place i and drop by for a while. As the result i skipped justin house, as his house angpau is RM10. >_<  Haiyo.... Luckily there's consolation prize for me, jing see house for RM5. And we gamble till late night.





I think i would like to skip to 7 february. where me and my hometown fren sing K at the new reopen redbox at Gurney plaza. And we went to Quayside...I pronounce as (kuay side)... But the truth is pronouce as (ki side) This place is definitely a place for Photographer to take picture... Even the sign board also damn nice ar...Here's the pic.

Wow, there's lot more to tell ar. I think that all for this one article. Next will be the Star cruise Libra.. =)

Uncle Sean

 Hi, am 22 years old now.... eligible to be call uncle sean. I just don't understand, me and my fren, we both have the same feeling that we are getting old, like uncle... Blek.... we are senior of senior ,the oldest in the college and we are on the working bench now, and so called university of society...The coming day will be even more busier, especially after graduate.

Hmm, today i would like to share some discussion, that is  人越长大越脆弱. do you agree with this statement?

不能对你说的话

   Today i work as sampling promoter.... Since that task was very free, my make my mind to think all day long... And i was thinking about you.... Think and think and think... The whole day i was juz cracking my mind to come out with mayb an idea for my cradle fund but i fail to do so... Another thing is juz you. And today i saw the post on ur facebook, mentioning that you've been sneezing whole day long, and asking who miss you... Argh, you have no idea how eager i wanted to tell you that... I am. I'm  the one who miss you so much.... But I juz can't...Knowing you din have normal meal, i tried to say smtg to you. Doesn't matter whether it's nice or bad thing/advise.. But I cant, i force myself to vomit words so that i can put comment on it but i still cant.... Ah GOD! I've lost communication channel with you. I don't know how am i suppose to make good of it... Argh you dunno how much i miss those day i get morning call from you... >_<
"多的是你不知道的事" ， 我对你“有一种想见又不能见的伤痛”，想说却又说不出口的毛病，最后我也只好和你“背对背拥抱”， 我有多么的不想和你“擦肩而过”.... 但"我还能做什么"？



PS: If in 2012 i am to die, i really wish that we two can made up together before the end...

Semester break= holiday = end of Advance Diploma Story

It's the end. Yet it is only the beginning. End of College Life at KL, but started the real life where M factor comes in and occupied a real weight of our total pressure....
When i was down, blogging is a tool for me to express each and every single emotion and feelings into words. However, the situation now is i am so busy, until there's no time for me to update my blog. Haiz.

I dare not even talk about relationship stuff which obvious i don't have it. After from that failure relationship where i myself give up waiting bcos of bullshit stuff, I lost my courage. i mean literally lost my courage to retackle gal. Shame on me. Nah, i deserve it.

Oh did i tell you that i have a passport since yesterday? It was so efficient and all right, i briefly go through the life in KL after exam. After exam, subway then sleep then pasar malam chau taufu then night movie Great day. It's a nice show. Second day(friday). early in the morning cradle fund stuff, afternoon part time sign up(PA recruitment at time square)+ night club at Mist. Saturday, Genting Interview and then casino then shopping and that's the end of story. Amazingly i found white collar Tee cost RM33 after 50% discount with soda brand at Genting. Am satisfied with that. Sunday, Pavilion shopping, i bought short pants cost me RM95, Padini brand. And i share with Jeck Collar Tee 2 for 66. I chose violet rad color. This new year i have myself another 2 brand of collar Tee. Fantastic. =) Monday, last day at KL, Viva in the morning, Passport at the afternoon, dye hair at the evening, and driving back at Mid night. I 've spent RM600++ in this 4 days, ain't that a bitch!!!

After club at Mist @ KL there, i kinda like to club now. Haha.... Drinking alchohol, dancing, Highing, those stuff allow me to get relax and stay away from outside world. For that 3 hours, speaker pulling high dB on us making us feeling numb. Hah.

Now back to the beginning of real world. First and Foremost, i need to find decent salary part time job. Continuously. Haiz... Pressure lar boss. I start with interview with Wellness Support Centre for tomoro interview. 

Reviewing year of 2010, striving towards the year of 2011

Happy New Year, i said to everyone, to my friends, to my families members, to me, and to you. Guess i need to update bit bit bout last week event. Well, it's pretty messy. First, i went Genting for celebrating Christmas, ended up sponsored RM150 to Genting. I bump with Chao An and his GF when i was a bit emotional... Then on the next day, Ah Ren bday party. Boom, being played by him... >_< But it's fun as i get the chance to put myself on the special bath tub, relaxing massage as well as tasting the thickest Bak Kut Teh soup that i ever took in 21 years. That was awesome. So next move to New Year Eve, i went Genting again, but this time just for study purpose.... In the end i ended up catching cold the next day. I juz dont wanna stay at house at these kind of festival celebrations. Oops, and i bump with Jun Feng... along with his gf. =) Seems like everybody has their own partner to be with huh. Surprisingly, that doesn't cast effect on me. Strange!

Gonna put some photo here.

Currently for this 2011, i have only one and only target, that is getting my degree in UK. Sub target included learning keyboard at higher level, passing my current exam.

Phew, today when i was viewing my profile pictures, i realize something. My God, my face gone worse... >_<
and my weight officially hang over 62kg... T_T!

Just hope that this year will be a better year!! Final will be coming very soon, about 2 days left!!!

Christmas Eve

Well, Merry Christmas i suppose. =) I like christmas song more than Chinese New Year Song, Peaceful, calming, soothing....And somehow can make our soul feel so.... so... eh, don't know how to express. In japanese i think is kimochi ii. Haha!!

I forgot when was my last blog and where i've stopped, but since it's already the end of the year, that doesn't matter anymore to me. Oh yea, time to report last two weeks event... Hmm, watched TRON, bought Sing K, Repair my car clutch, eat subway twice with same topping same sub in 3 days, Printing thesis, Watching One Piece.... And attended last keyboard class in the year 2010. I am not sure whether i am able to work at KL after Chinese New Year but i really do miss the period i am learning...


I thought of working at Genting after Chinese New Year, i am ok with the salary offered, as they have included accomodation and a meal for me, but for me to continue my keyboard lesson seems to be a bit tedious.... I need to get a day leave back there at Genting especially weekends for me to continue my keyboard lesson. That leads me to second choice, which is working at KL.. In plan B, there are two route for me to choose, it's either for me to work as full time employee(choice X) or just sign with part time agency and work for weekends.(Choice Y) Indeed,  with choice Y i manage to get higher pay, but then it may force me unable to continue with my keyboard lesson which is my main reason of staying in KL... The job usually involve 3 days, which is Friday to Sunday. And Jason usually only available on weekends afternoon. For choice X i may have the chance to take leave on one of the weekends but then the pay is much lower than the choice Y. Anyone who read this articles please give me your precious opinion for me to take a reference in deciding choice X or Y. It will be the best if i can choose choice Y, without compromising my keyboard session. Hmm...

There is left about 1 weeks plus before i step into final. To be frank, i haven't study even a single subject. This time, again break another record of me for the fact that i haven't even do my revision yet even it's the end of week 13. But what to do, this year the New Year and christmas falls on week 13 and 14 not 11 and 12.... I just don't have that will to study now... Wish me luck on the coming exam then...

As usual, i feel a bit down when i am still a S&A person towards the end of the year. But then when i think of the past, the two years with my ex.... Christmas and New Year celebration  kinda terrify me. It's a nightmare. Then i start wondering if i have gf now, what will i do, and where will we go.... And the result is i am completely out of idea. So, it's better for me to stay single. B-)

Last but not Least, Merry Christmas to my friends, my families, my relatives and to you.

Towards the End of Advance Diploma

Well, time sure pass away quickly. This is the end of week 12.... I have to admit from week 8 onwards i am superb busy where singing competition is on week 8, prodex 1st round on week 8, week 9 prodex launching... week 10 and 11 like assignment due date and test  as well as thesis draft.... Additional event, tarc open day which i need to practice sing [even though it did not went very well on Friday].... Fui yoh!! I've endure 4 years of study in TARC. Erm, so far so good i suppose. To think that this whole thing is going to put to an end makes me feel sort of down~ But i really should thank TAR College, for helping in developing my skills and attitude towards work in the future. Hmmm, what should i say.... The only regret is i did not have extra time to learn everything about music in M2U.. I wanna learn guitar, keyboard... drum...etc...

Actually i feel a little lazy on updating my blog... Probably because of busying... And actually yesterday i intended to go Genting....  But after some thoughts, i call it an off... Then sing K... But after that i call an off too.... Watch mid night movie and eventually i call it off.... In the end, i am sitting at home playing keyboard.... 1 song after another...Thought i was kinda letoff but the fact is No, i haven't spend time in playing keyboard for a long period.... On mid of week 13 i got to start doing my revision... then proceed to final and hops, CNY... Today will be my keyboard class last lesson for 2010... Mayb i will continue after CNY on 2011.

 There are too many uncertainty up ahead.... And i wanna make sure i've prepared for it. =) Chill Sean!

End of week 11

Oops, guess i missed upating blog for a week. Okay let's continue what i stopped last articles.
FYI, i in top 10, yeap.... For the prodex 1st round, i also in finalist... Miracle ly... I totally cant believe it.
Ok this nonsense did not stop on friday. On tuesday, as expected, i did not won the top 3. However i feel very contented as i manage to get into finalist. You must know that being able to get a sticker that label Finalist stick on my booth is something awesome... Okay, time for unbelieveable thing. On monday i present to external judges, and there's 1 lady are the representative from cradle fund, and she came to my booth on tuesday Prodex. She compliment on my project and said that i am eligible to proceed to applying cradle fund. And i must admit it, that week is just so lucky for me. However, i may not get that fund easily as there are many hassles need to go through. Probably i'll get the fund by next year after i back from UK. And highly likely, the percentage is very very low. I know Mr Pang style. >_< But then i am happy enough to get through this weekend. ^_^V

There, photo of limelight.

Alrite, next to other event.  Erm, Genting time. tuesday is the day prodex. So on thursday morning, about 2.30 am. Me, elay, Chee How, Ren, Brian go to Genting... Wow... this is another f**king unbelievable event again... Going genting on 2.30am ? Without jacket??? With short pants? with slippers??? That time the fog/mist is so heavy... We can barely see the road...Thank GOD, me and my friends safely return on 7.30 am....Go genting for what??? Erm, for mamak... Unbelievable right? I'll skip that part why we go genting in out of sudden.

Friday night, Rapunzel 3D time. =) The show was nice.... All my friend enjoyed it. The gangs consist of natasha, jeck, ren, chee how, brian, elay and me. Okay end of story.

On wednesday and thursday night, we rush our EIS assignment II from midnight to dawn... Phew... 2 days continously took sausage McMuffin as breakfast... Thought i was gonna hang up...

On saturday, here i am... It's actually sunday bcos the clock shows 2.14am. Nevertheless, i think i will continue on my thesis statement. Alright, close those unbelievable stories...One more event which is TARC open day. Then i'll put all my strength to face my final trial before i get to the social university.

Cheers!!

PS: Suddenly many people asked me  or perhaps wondering why is that i don't have girl friend... Some say they cannot accept that i dont have gf... I am handsome, nice personality [those are feedback from my friend and i am not flattering myself] Erm... Why??I myself don't know the exact reason... Is that true that i am happy with my situation now? Or am i waiting for someone? Or sick of hooking up troublesome relationship? Or i am too mature to have one? There's no certain answer... Well, up to you to judge..

A day before the Prodex 1st round

Yo what's up!!! This month is so damn busy for me.... Especially this week. Well juz jump to another paragraph for day to day details.
Monday: An m2u singing competition audition is held... And also a day before exam.. I am so fucked up as time is totally not enough for me. I wasted friday night on one piece... study merely 1 chapter notes on saturday and learning keyboard as well as rehearse for audition for sunday... To be frank, my throat is in a deep shit since last week. Even until now, thursday my throat still cannot be cure. During the audition i sang two song :you raise me up and 记得... The evaluation on myself is bad, as i intend to tune down the key from the very beginning, the key sang is even low as compare during rehearsal time. That time i am so regret that i did not sing higher key.Oh forgot to mentioned, i am number 19. =)
However, i received message from M2U that i am qualified to final... Probably is because when they ask about me did i play instrument before and i answered yes... : Keyboard and guitar!!

Tuesday: Dr Yiauw test. I already foresee that i am gonna fail this test. Yeap!! And it score up to my expectation. I aim to get 4/10 total marks, instead i get 3.8/10 . I am quite happy for that result already... After the test i rush to time square to get my RM140 FYP poster... Along the way back via LRT, Mr Pang called me that he wanted to see me. When he saw my poster, he opened his mouth with a big big STUN, while i tell him the price of the poster.. For 1 minutes.... then only continue his comment... Seriously, that poster is very expensive... >_< RM80 for the design and RM60 for the printing... FUI YOH!!!
At night, there's a briefing regarding the final for the singing competition... Apparently, we are the 18 chosen people to compete and 10 of us will be selected for performing during the college open day... And monday we are to hear the briefing...

Wednesday: This day can be treated as free day. I watched harry potter... Emma was fucking hot... She was beautiful, sexy, hot, intelligence, everything i can imagine... She's a hard 10 in my opinion!!! FUI YOH!!!

Thursday: I skipped two classes, doing all the programming stuff to finalize the project stimulation. And for the final, i sang 黑色幽默 and Do I have to Cry for You- Nick Carter.... I am number 12. I know, my bad~~ I perform awfully bad... This is because i intend to sing high key, as compare to audition where i sing very low key.... Am lil bit down when driving back.... However, i feel very happy as i can meet all those new friends that likes to sing... At least we share the same hobby.... We talk as if we already known each other for quite some time, even if it's the first time. Majority gal gal... HEHE!!!! And some unbelievable stuff happen to me again as i receive a sms, stating that i am the top 10 list... That's what happen when i am typing thursday stuff...Unbelievable,as my pitch is running up and down eh...HOHOHO~~

Friday: This will be tomorrow day.... 1st round... Honestly speaking i've prepared my slide, but i haven't prepare the script... Woooo, so gan jiong!!Currently i am waiting the news from my mates as well... I hope that they can be in top 10 as well...

PS: Busy month makes me feels that my life is very contented, however my body condition is awfully bad...Haiz...