A surprise 21st bday early celebration from Pg hometown friends

The surprise happened on friday, where me and my friend going for yam cha at bloggers cafe without noticing they're preparing to throw me that big surprise...Initially the venue is at Station One.. But on 9 o clock i received msg that venue had changed to Blogger's cafe. After topping up my Touch n Go in Maybank, i rush there.... When i at blogger, no ppl's there. I called xue ting, she say there are at old town, next to blogger. After meet with them, we go back to blogger for yam cha session. They purposely waited for me to finished my meal, then Suki trying to pursue me to sing at the stage with her 驻唱歌手 frens. Initially i rejected, but after some words of comfort lar, i begins to have interest on singing on that stage. I wanna know the feeling of singing at Cafe to customer, as i planned to become one after finished my Engineering degree. I wanted to become that person(forgot name dy)that i met at Super Boy audition, as an engineer but at friday sat and sun night, a singer at a cafe. So i give it a shot. On 10 o clock he really come and we introduce ourself, discussing the song we gonna sing. At first i decided to sing 你不知道的事, but i know that my vocal tat day is not good as earlier i drove to top up my touch and go card, i try to sing and shout in my car to test my vocal today. As predicted i cannot come out with smooth pitch on chorus part. Then i changed my song to 王力宏- 柴米油盐酱醋茶. But i was unfamiliar with that song. Argh nvm we act spontaneously at that time. That singer is Xiao Kang. It's good to know a 驻唱歌手 as frens. YAY!! This is the link..
http://www.facebook.com/ytsean?v=app_2392950137#!/video/video.php?v=430656753260
During the performance i did many mistake, as this is my unprepare things, and first attempt, guess i can forgive myself for that. HEHE~

As soon as the performance finished, i pass back the microphone to lady (name hui ting) beside him, then he inout of sudden ask me to stay, i thought he wanted me to sing more, caught my thrill inside heart. HAHA~~ But the truth is no, as i hear his talk more, i felt smtg was amiss, then he ask me to close my eye stuff like that. Then the bday celebration things slipped through my mind~ After the count down, Birthday song was sang. At tat moment i was so so so DAMN surprised on it. MY GOD, did i tell you that when i was 18, i wish my birthday would somehow being celebrated by friends, as my birthday is always dropped on the middle of holiday, making all friends cannot celebrate with me. Oh  i longed this moment for really long, long until i forgetted this desire after the broke up with my EX. This is the best surprise and first bday celebration i ever had. The very reason that i do not expect they to celebrate my birthday that friday is because many of my friend also have birthday around the corner. 23rd sept chun yan from KPL, 24th Sy yeong From KPL, then 26th, my cousin in KL and Chee How from KL advance Diploma, and 27th my birthday, 29 boon lin from secondary and boon hong from KPL. YOU SEE THAT?? celebrated my birthday on 24th is unexpected because my mind is thinking how to celebrate my fren who birthday that day. FYP stuff keeping my mind busy also a contributing factors. This is the link
http://www.facebook.com/ytsean?v=app_2392950137#!/video/video.php?v=430679648260
My GOD, thank you for granting me such frens. I like the tie between me and them. I've thanked all people in facebook that day. I would like to further express my thanks to suki as she plotted this kind of surprise. The idea of putting me up to the stage is never been planned. Until when we reached bloggers then this idea cross her mind.

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<< Every people Exclude MC



OF course is me myself.



LHS pretty lady hui ting, RHS lengcai Xiao Kang Middle dummy sean, XD

Thank you my friends, for letting me have such memorable birthday celebration, and my lovely family who always stay in happy condition.... My father , mother, and two sister. My father bought me a GOLD key for my 21st. I never expect that he would be so generous for me. Earning money to support the family is very tough i know it very well. On thursday the whole family go to 喜来登 for celebrating my early birthday. Although they did not say happy birthday to me but i feel very very happy ady, as it was 4 years since me and my family go out and have a great dinner. Last time is when i am going to Penang to study. That dinner cost RM46 per pax.. 5 persons total.

For my relationship stuff, i've stopped thinking it. Although those romantic words always posted in facebook i get down once in a while... After i watched those stuff, i do my sit up as many as possible till i tired to think about it. Then i am all right now. As i say, i couldn't afford to waste my time sad or EMO more about those relationship that never starts at the beginning. I've grown up huh!

Recently i watched some educational clips from china and i would like to share this statement. 万恶淫为首，百善孝为先. It say, among all the bad things, sex things is the major of it. On the other hand, among all the good things, 孝顺 daddy and mommy is the first move. This is the summary of our great ancestor from china. They've been through from last 5000 years and we must stick to that teaching  in order to become a successful and healthy person. The successful person that i mention is not talking about being a millionaire or smtg like that. NO!

Wanna know more? Consult me. =)

又一个星期六的深夜

Weird, felt like saturday night is blog night.... Hah!! I told before that i love the song "星期六的深夜" sang by Lee Hom. When i listen to that song, even when i was together with my second ex, tears will still rolling around my eye. This is probably that song that stick real close examples to my broken heart after relationship i suppose.I saw fren blog juz now. Figure out that she's going through the same path as i been through last year, enjoying single at the beginning of couples of month after the decision, but when the enjoy faded and loneliness invaded, and only realize that how you miss the old time deep beneath your heart where you know you cant find the way back into love ever again.... How sad it is. I wish i could give some word of comfort to her but erm~ i still believe that rather than renting a temporary shoulder, left her to be alone now will make her even stronger later on. Hang On there, once the new semester come, you feel better.

For my own relationship, i finally give up on her. It's hard for me to make such decision. I believe that there'll be another person better than me to take care of her later on. So let it be. I'm just a normal guy, where all talent are only halfway, and a decent future engineer with low increment salary. After get rid of that relationship slot in my mind, I finally realize the importance of friend. On last Wednesday, i have a two gathering continuously at Blogger cafe(KPL) and station one cafe(5s1 and 5s2).  It's nice to have a annual gathering with friends. It help to warm up the chain of friendship... And i am glad to be a member of cadet police in secondary. It seems that we are the only team who have annual gathering every year.

On Friday, I have another outing with my ex-housemate. It surprised me that without watching movie, i can stay at Penang for 9 hours like that. From 5 ppls, 2 drop plane and result in initial 3 ppls start their journey from BM. Bowling session for 3 ppl, go INTI find another 2 frens and meet coincidently another fren at queensbay which total up is 6 persons. Skipping my hair clumsy topic, i found that those friends that at the beginning i am not comfortable hang out with, acknowledge by me as a good fren without noticing. That feeling is warm, comfortable thinking that can have so much nice friend along my side, even we are not at the same college or location in pursuing our cert, the friendship tie will not break easily. I learn another precious thing on that friday too, that is using my fujifilm camera. I once complained on you, mad at you, utter dirty words on you, it is because i do not know your beauty. Now that i get to realize how nice you are, i think you and i can be a great partner. =)

This section is talking about my Final year project. On wednesday, after delaying the date to friday with my friends, i finally resumed my FYP. I feel that everyday i made a lil' progress. Even that was just a little, i am content with that, at least i finally get serious in FYP. Till now, i finally done my first linking coding. However, the more i dig, the more i realize that there are even more thing that i need to do in my FYP. Thinking that makes me feel scary, worried that i may not have time to finish in schedule. Linking is easy now. But to make the linking perfect, putting delay when getting data, always have the reader standby to being read, increment, decrement accordingly, distinguish the product is hell lot of works. After that i still need to complete  that database using microsoft access, and even more fuzzy after these i need to do a code that can auto generate email to supplier or prepared properly with the click and that data can be sent. Headache ar~~~ Looks like i need another 7-14 days to do my work without interrupting my studies. But my new semester is about to start in 1 weeks. Problem again. >_<  Doing the project alone is scary, because you only have internet as your friend and nothing else. Supervisor not in the programming field and when you shout for help, no people's listening. But this is my decision and i have prepared for it.


Go sean go. You can do it.

Desperate in changes

Did i share in this blog that i've been running toilet badly yesterday? Well, I think i can share some here. It all begins on last blogging, Friday. I think after i publish that articles, the sun is already rise, 7-8 o clock i suppose. suicide reason1: Too late sleep. That day is the 1st day or Raya, so my mom decided to go visit my K-mom, and grandmother as well at Kedah and hence i wake up at 12 i suppose. suicide reason 2: Not enough sleep
After Branch, went there chit chat, eat junklish. suicide reason 3: harming body unnecessarily.  Evening back, i decided to go for jogging. 10 rounds at my taman park. The reasons beings for jog is that i hope to get little tired and avoid insomnia as well as putting my weight in control. suicide reason 4: over pushing unrest body. For dinner, since my mother didn't cook, my sisters and me go for KFC. Since i brought the family feast, there's lot of harmful food there. 1st, whole 1.5L of pepsi with full CO2, need not to mention about the fried chicken, and i sucked whole bottle of thai chili sauce sumore, the colesaw is suppose to be the healthy food initially, but they stored for too long. I think there's something wrong with it which recalling the fullness and taste could make me vomit immediately >_< . Since the preparation all done, there it go.

After the jog, making my stomach so much hungry, hence, as soon as pepsi opened, i sucked a cup at once, putting all CO2 inside my stomach, continued my placing fried chicken, allowing those oil to serve as a barrier and prevent the CO2 get lost from my stomach, eating big plate of colesaw which it ady has smtg wrong makes the situations worse... That night i vomitted twice at midnight 3 4 o clock. Resulting in wasting my money in a flush, and making my stomach gastric...

Saturday, i consult doctor, I had to say, BM all doctor useless d. Same pattern d. Talk 3 min, then give stupid medicine.... There goes my weekend, wasting 2 day acting like a patient, no mood to do things, no mood to eat, play, nor do the Final year project~~~

Monday, finally i gotten better. Meet with sy yeong, so jusco wash face... During the period my stomach pain like hell... As soon as i get home, took my dinner, then i been running the toilet every 5 minutes... Continously from 8.30 to 10.30 pm. in Chinese, 没有十次也有八次... I seriously consider smtg was wrong with my organ back then... Totally numb with it~~ That scenario can totally be discuss with sitting in front of the laptop, reading FYP infomation in just 2 words, or lines.... The stomach summon me to go toilet, repeatedly.

Tuesday, that problem still persist for 2 times i guess. After that, i am sicked with the frequent running toilet and instead of doing FYP, i play my PS2. Good thing is that i made a slightly tiny little progress with FYP which i managed to link my hardware, and download other ppl C programming, and retrieve the data inside. Still the coding is way too complicated. I need more time flexibility where there's no interruption on event, frens call, and neither the stomach ache to accomplished it. However, i see many of my friends have continued their progress pretty fast through plurk, blog and others... This making me feel very uncomfortable, beginning to stress. Thinking that i have not done much after for 4 months durations.... Haiz~ This only proves 1 thing, that i am not the engineer type of person and i can pretty sure of that.

On the other side of me, i re-evaluate myself, feelings, point of view towards the "BnG relationship". I figured it out finally, i was the one who choose to ended up become like this, cant blame anyone for it. I should mantain my very important concept which is 她快乐等于我快乐~ What matters is everyone important to me, stay healthy, happy and that's it. Although when i clicked at her FB page, there's still minor bleed occur in my heart, but i'll sure sooner the time will heal it. Let's keep my life as simple as now. Need not to mixed up all those relationship status which i not really need it now, so why bother it and let it pain inside my heart? I just afraid of the fact that most engineers are unable to get a wife even in their 30's age. Too busy i suppose. But for my case, i decided to set a target limit that in 5 years, if i still an engineer, i'll quit and begin the other job.

There's 1 more thing bothering me. Most of my classmate stayed in KL to pursue their FYP. Minority ppl like me stay at home for whole break. They can continue their FYP without distraction. But for me, living in KL is nice. But staying in uncle house is bad, horrible. There's no life there. I may wonder, what if i stay in KL, will i able to accomplish thing like my classmate? But deep beneath my heart i know that it is impossible, i'll miss my parents, friends, and homesicked...The choice's is mine. If i were given second chance, i'll choose the same path again, back hometown and meanwell continue my FYP. What regrets is that i need more determination on it as well as the environment for me to do it. Staying at my room in the afternoon is like staying in sauna, going downstairs and i'll get distract by my mother daily drama. Ishhh~~I need to find a solution to cope with it somehow.
I left 1 and a half week staying at BM, and the same time remaining to complete my FYP. Argh, thinking about the timeline is killing me.

Today's wednesday, hopefully after the meet with my ex housemate, and gathering with secondary mate, i can concentrate on my FYP. Wish my stomach stay in low profile today.... :-$

Deep within Happiness

Well, i suppose i been frequent in blogging this few days... Somehow i miss the exam period... Exam sucks... But that feeling of just concentrate on the exam, which while we are examing, it's like 考试大过天. No loneliness feeling, no complicated feelings, no FYP, no Emo, no $$ headache, and the feeling of hoping for many unexpected event when back hometown. Man~ Only exams matter!! For those subject who have confidences, aim for A while for lack of confidences, aim for C.. That all...

Now, back at hometown... It's really great to see my mother, father and my families... Well, for a few days at least. Those familiar dialect from other home town ppl, Irresistable food... That is just for a few days.

Deep inside, when the night is high, I cant sleep. Insomnia i suppose. The habits now is getting extraordinary tired from 8 to 12. Then become unusually active from 1am onwards.... Oh boy~ I mess up my time >_<

So what's the reason's behind??

Partly is because of my FYP. Mainly is because of this loneliness feeling. I fell for someone. For year i guess. I like everything about her. She's active, friendly, responsible, cute(for me), always going for outstations.... But recently, she's way too over the limits~~ For days i feel very very down, for the relationship status~ Couple of days later, changed from in a relationship to In a Relationship with XXXXX. It triple up my heart brokens. I know that it is almost impossible to have that relationship with Mr X, since we still have our regular msn chat. But not that frequent. I decided to uncover the fact. To my horror, they are playing... X simply send the invitation to her for the purpose to dare her and she accept it without second thought. There goes the truth. They are not couple but you see rumour when get spread too far, it became real for the others to think. They even 假戏演到底. I wish to could tell u my feeling but i cant.

Things gotten worse when i back hometown until now, i haven't meet my old fellows. They been busy. Some i don't even know where they are now. It's like meaningless to get back home. No ones to meets, no peoples to share those topics. Usually ppls say that human's heart are 犯贱. It's true. The more i expect, the more letdown i receive. And because of that my heart are not satisfied yet to start my FYP. Before i sleep back then, my mind struggle for what kind of satisfaction i must have in order for my heart willing to do the FYP. The time in my house is going too peacefully, i seems to get infected seriously.

In this recent, i always recall back one of the topic that discuss in FM. I forget what FM is that but there's a question asking ppl about, 你觉得单恋 但是失恋比较痛苦？ I asked this question to myself... Personally, these two things are hurt, but in different perspective. Unrequited love(Onesided love) is not as pain as but it will hunt you pretty long.... years...  Lovelorn(dissapointment in love affair) on the other hands, is very much painful... It can make you sleepless for month, losing appetite, losing target of life, losing focus, losing yourself etc. These however, if you manage to squeeze out with a remedy(i am not saying vaccine for the lovelorn), you can heal up pretty fast, maybe in a couples of days, weeks. Only the would that left on the heart needs more time to cure.

Since both are pain, why people still want it so badly? For me, those priceless thing require more time than other to acquire. That's for sure. PHD is so high, but in order to gain it the path also double the tough.  I like the song sang by Lady antebellum - "Need you now "so much. Among all the lyric i think this suits me most. "Guess i rather hurt than feel nothing at all... " I rather have Unrequited love than feels nothing at all. At least that'll keep my heart beats, make life a little bit meaningful~~  Surely, i always have my ass kick real bad when it comes to relationships.

Share with you a story. There's a University, and a class where the students are part time, have their own families, career and their own business. One day, the professor ask for volunteer to conduct some class examples. A woman stand up and volunteers. Professor asked the woman to list down all the important persons in her life. There she lists. Friends, Parents,Husband, Children, etc... Then the professor asked her to erase 1 list that is least important to her in her life. She took some time, and finally erase the friends. Then Professor asked the woman to do the same steps again, The woman struggle, couples of minutes later she erased Parents... Until there's only 2 choice left, Husband and children. The professor asked the same question again.... Tears rolling from woman eyes. Finally, she erased the Children. The professor asked her : "Why you choose this as your decision?" The woman answered : "There are many important people who step into my life,  however, one will slowly leaving you as time passed by. Friends are the best example. You may have 40 classmater as your friend in your primary, but only few will become your good friends. Slowly time passed and they leave you and you have another bunch of friends at differents level. Parents are important, but they'll passed away someday... Children are importants, but they will start over a new family when they grown up and eventually leave you behinds. Only husband that will accompany me to spend the rest of my life together." 

To me the moral value of this stories is that choose wisely your partner if you wanna him/her to accompany you for the rest of the life. I missed the day that i have partner... Seriously~ Can't blame me because i had almost 2 years i did not step into the whole relationship stuff. Two is better than one i suppose. It's really hard to find....

感触

The day after my exam... I back with heavy mood, thinking that upon 5 subject i encounter, there are 3 subject in the border lines... Might fail... Before i back, i go to canteen to fill my hungry stomach but unfortunately, that day is saturday... Canteen closed~ While trying to figure out what i am going to eat, Subway suddenly popped into my mind, then i called yeong ren. In the end we go eat together with brian, Chee How, Eric, as well as yeong ren and me. This is a very surprise meal as i eat the crab meat(which is seafood).. I break my own record...At house, i have no mood to do anymore thing... Except for glazing at the ceiling... I wish that time can pass slowly but unfortunately there's too much thing i need to do. 1st is decide where to go at night. 2nd is arrange the time for tomorrow event. 3rd is packing up my luggage, and 4th, recompile my notes...

1st coming event = appointment with jeck thing, Pool. 2 hours for only RM12. Cheap. Sumore gt many gals around. I got 4 continous lucky shot and 1 double shot that time. Lucky. V^_^V That stick until 11.40pm... Going for yam cha, supper... Met AEL gang... Wan Cyber cafe wor... I took roti kosong and teh tarik at steven corner... So heart contentive supper for me. =) After that 13-14 ppl counter strike.... Till approx 2 o clock like that. Back house, packing goods... till 4 to 5 smtg.

11 o clock woke up. Preparing for Sing K session which all photo i posted to the facebook. Thanks again to Jason for treating us. This is the longest session i ever had. 2 o clock start until 9.45pm....That still haven't finish... Unbelieveable....

Thanks to Justin, Yee Wen, and Xiiao Yiin for making this event successful.

 AND for JJ lin event running synchonize with Sing K session, That was amazing.... Minus the time waiting for JJ... 1 and a half hour.. I still give distinction to it. I got the signature too. =)

When i reached house.. It is already 12 am.. in 1 hour, i depart from KL back to my very own hometown. Since i manage to reach before 6 am.. I have 20% off for my tol fee. Yea.. Finally i verified what my lecturer told me.

I reached home at 6.40am i suppose. My father heard the sound of the door and opened the door for me. That is where the article title begins to link with. I reached my room.. Thank to me myself the whole room is a mess. Insect waste are every where. It is actually normal when come to think of it that the room have been isolated for 4 months. It took me 1 and a half hour to clean up the whole room. Not to mention i haven't sleep until that time. Who to blame??? I was the one who tell father not to tell mother that i am driving at midnight, for not letting her worried for my safety. After cleaning up the room, it is already 8 o clock. i see my mom, my dad face even clearer... 皱纹有改善但老人斑却.... as for my dad 白头发散到更广的地方...The applicances in my house even more packed... My father bought himself a massage machine... More recycle goods in my house...After a cup of milo, l pull myself to upstair, laying my body at my newly changed bedsheet...monotoning...

"You've grown big. Dad n mom's getting older... You need to take heavier responsibilities from now on. Youngest sister still in SPM, you are the only boy..." Those word keeps fading, and fading in my mind..我很感激我的父母，从出生带我到现在，成为个有用的人。Really. I love you so much mom and dad~ Imagine in just 4  months u can already see the changes in your parents.... What if you work oversea for 4 years??? How would your father and mother become???

Somehow, at my own house, it has a special Enchantment, halting all the mission and assignment ahead... Peaceful mindset... Leading me to the dream world. Only at 4pm my mom woke me up....And here i am. =)