Moody day...

It is the beginning of the week 2 of Year2sem3 at Pg Tarc College...A week ago, i felt so happy that i am so grateful to be single, enjoying all my salaries and my money spending alone... Until yesterday, i realize, things couldn't go on what i wanted to... First, i have RM500 basic salaries... But deducting Celebrities member Fee RM137, Deducting the RM30 for the book,RM119.2 for the Nike Bag shown up there, RM62.7 for moisturizer, RM102.4 for the electic+streamyx+water bills...I left RM48.7... and with that money, i spent it all in last week in surviving... Swt!!! What the heck!! I am thinking that i let myself go too far away in spending... In 1 week all allowance gone!! How come? Probably when i used to have a gf, i need to be mature enough, thinking lots of problems that may arise when i spend blindly and therefore spend my money wisely... Thinking that after i become single again, i no longer need to have that responsibilities...But i forgotten to control myself. I need to responsible to myself, to every cent i spent...Well, guess from now on, i still be the old Sean...Always thinking about saving money...

That perfume, ohh, brought last month... That was my second Perfume i brought to myself...First, unfortunately is from Adidas brand brought in Watson... Too Cheap to be called perfume... RM178 from quilsilver and RM22 From adidas... See the difference?

I notice one things... Every lights brings a dark in it... When the sun shine on you, it will reflect a shadow of you on your backs... Same to my feelings... I was very very happy... But it wont last long... Sooner or later, when i notice that i spent unreasonably... When i notice my hair is too long and have no idea for a plan on what to do on my hair sytle, noticing that pressure from studies coming closer and closer, noticing i have not enough time to do what i wanted to do, noticing that my body couldn't handle the life i was having now... Going to sick... Everythings start to turns their back on me...I feel down, and sorrow begins to conquer my thinkings.

I was lonely, and yet, i was not willing to find another partner, because i will never wanted to spend any cent on them anymore... I rather to be alone... I am not capable enough to take care of them... Oh God, can i find a gal, who can able to accept my height, able to share thinking togethers, like a girlfriend and boyfriend, without any responsibilities in future, without any expecting that we have futures?
Guess NOT!!! T_T