Fatal Move!!

It the quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now!!!! Say i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now!!And i dont know how i can live without i juz need you now!!!!!

Obviously it's a lyric from Need you now which a song i madly in love with. Well, not so love now but surely i'll definitely how to sing once the music pop out!!! The point is, now is a quarter to 6. Not pm but AM!!!
To my surprise, i erm like having some kind of evolution, that i get tired easily!!! GOD, i slept at 11pm, woke at 4.30am!!! THE HECK???Of coz it's a great news, glad that my body can go according to nature for once in a while!

It's been two weeks since i touch on my FYP!! To me, it was like already complete and i need just few days to compile and TADA!! Thesis statement come!!To my horror, this is the 1st of november, 1st day on week 6.... And erm... erm... 29 days countdown to Prodex!! Aiyoyo, to think that i wasted 2-3 weeks for doing ntg makes me feel awfully guilty. But at least i donated my 600ml blood last week!!! clearly, there'll be some arguement that why 600ml? Not typical 450ml meh??? Well, after the nurse plug out the pin the blood pack obviously seems to have 600ml to me!! It's bloody full and it do looks like another few drops could lead the whole pack blow!!

Now back to the main core topic of the title and articles, i've made 2 fatal move last month which i have great regret on it. 1st, is from the blog. In PS, i wrote that i've give up on you, this that and erm... The fact is not like that. Everytime, talk/write in this content seems to be the easiest thing than DO~ The very reason i chose to say that rather than being suspicious and gone crazy in mind for the worst case about the rumour spread, i choose to accept the worst condition, prepare for the worst, that the rumour is actually a true story, so that when that become reality, my life wont go so bad. This is the thing i always do when it comes to result, so that if i really fail i wont get so upset... I was not wrong for being self- protective,but indirectly those words i utter in blog.... ruining the friendships of us. Am sorry for that. Really! Truly!! and i mean it! Now that you finally changed back the status, stop the joke and back to the track. I'm glad... Really glad to hear that!! Felt like a stone that continously blocking my heart beat for so long has finally dropped into the sea!!!

Another fatal move is that i attended the world trade seminar talk, which cost me RM45, with the brochure!! To me it is not that bad... It was hard for me to escape from their psycho!! Really!! Try to imagine 2 professional and 1 newbie mouth against 1 unmature mouth(which is me obviously), how to get rid of them??? The best speaker Arthur Yap talk is great, inspiring... But that's all! He dont even get a shit chance to get me into their new product business, silver 8!!! Well, eumora seems nice to me and i might consider that to use it in the future. When i woke up at 4.30am, i know that the decision i've made is firm, and correct for now and i am glad juz to spend RM45 rather than RM4990!!!And for that i must repeatedly thank those lecturers especially Mr Ong, my ex math lecturer and also my ex boss Chan for teaching me their philosophy!!! Chan's strict. But i get to know even more better the life as he shares the same dream to me now. Eager to join some kind of direct sales or working at Oversea. He had gone through it, fell and climb numerously and his story is so GOD DAMN real!!! I cannot deny the fact of his speech!


PS:
The longer i stay in KL, the more i fell in love with KL. I am that kind of person, who hate traffic lights, who hate to wait bus, who wants many shopping complex... who love music and wish to play and learn!!! Well KL offers it all. GK with infinite transportation at daytime, 1/2 hour to grand shopping complex like midvalley and One utama, big long highway with less traffic lights, and the most important things, A great teacher like Jason to teach me keyboard! Man!!!! That was amazing.... Awesome. I'll never regret learning keyboard now. I regret of not learning is so soon. I should have learn it long time ago!!! Of coz, Penang which is my hometown is still the best. What my point is, KL is ain't bad at all! I am glad i've come KL!!! Gosh i am late for my assignment rush.... Gotta end here!!

Updating~~

Phew Phew....I suppose i've been late updating myself over here. As you can see, i bought YAMAHA PSR -E 423 keyboard. ^_^V  With bag and stand total up, RM1360. Though it's a bit expensive but erm... The keyboard's fantastic... Hoo-ray... Finally...Yea~~I think i've mess up my financial control but i am sure i wont regret it. Final sem.. And my CGPA is not going anywhere better... So might as well do what i like, which the passion's there.

Basically there's nothing much i can share on last week as the whole week i ended up worrying that my keyboard arrival. Then at last saturday i fell sick... Due to the weather... But it's all right now and i think i just skipped that. Oh yea i remember now, last week LJMU and SHU and Queens Belfast came and gave their own speech. I've decided to join LJMU!! WHY?? LJMU have such low ranking, higher FEE, shorter period of accomodations, etc. There's one critical reason, the subject is carried by module with module which i think it will be pretty much easy to study... I feels like playing at there more than suffering and that's exactly what i am going to do later.

Yesterday night, i watched Dinner for Schmucks with Yeong Ren and as feedback, the movie was great. I rated 9.5/10 in comedy, making people laugh sides where that's the real purpose of watching that movie... Laugh and laugh and laugh~~ There's isn't much emo inside me now as i have a keyboard class with me, keeping my life busy with assignments, test, keyboard practice and so on.. Bypassing the sad part inside my heart and heals secretly. As the matter of facts, i think i love to be single, to certain extend... I am still enjoying it. Think from the bright sides. Yea!!

As for FYP, i think i've finished overall. 80-90% for software parts. All left is the thesis part and demonstration parts. I need to check with my supervisor what's next.  Assignment and test are coming, upon 4 subjects, none if them i get to know.. So that's why this week i am going to put efforts on it. starts with power electronics and control systems engineering.


PS: i would like to express my thank to Yeong ren for accompanying me sitting at LRT taking keyboard. I think if let's day tat day i went alone, i would not be able to carry all of the stuff.

Wonderful day

Today's a wonderful day. How did i define that day was wonderful??? The day is wonderful when i think positive of everythings, i solve the current problems in my minds and i get to do what i like the most, SING K!!! Today i must express thank to Yeong Ren for helping me to get rid of the error i cannot solve for 2 days. Can't believe that juz a space problem replace with underscore can make the whole program go smoothly...Darn it, why can't i figure that out !!!  Now with my database completed the phase 1, the progress is increment to 60% completion~~~ What i need to do now is to polish the software in terms of everything, my codes are bloody messy!! >_<

Yes, abosolutely correct, SINGing's my hobby, music's my passion and indirectly, sing k is my best entertainment!!! Even though today only 2 ppl's singing, but that feeling is very contented!!! total up we sang about 3 and a half hour with no buffet, that makes us sing even more!!! I can only say, this session is the best session i ever have K'ing since this year... As more people join and sing, the entertainment side is enhance, but self satisfaction is less. Singing's the thing, the route, a way to help me get rid of my pressure, my emo feeling, all my -ve things. Makes me feel more alive, comfortable and clearer in mind... I remember someone ever told me, meat and vege is our body food, but music is our soul food. Guess my soul is pretty hungry~~ In addition, after i practice to follow the law of nature rule, my body condition is getting more and more healthy which makes me singing even more better (in my own perception, no harm k)!!!

On the way back, i took dinner with Ah Thing, we chit chating lots of things. Putting aside the other's people topic, when we discuss about giving people 1st impression, Jeck said to me that my 1st impression makes them feel that i am cheeful person, very positive, can influence ppl to make them happy, In other words, quite a sociable man. Yea and i like that. First Yeong Ren told me in last sem that i am entertainment type persons. Then Natasha told me that i can influence her to become cheerful whenever she meets me and in down mood. When she gt lots of things to do can panick, i can sort of calm her down as if ntg is happening next.

The point is, 1 ppl tell i am not going to believe that. 2 ppls tell, i may believe that i am that type of person, and now 3 ppls acknowledge that... Guess i ought to change that may to i am that type of person. HEHE~ Actually no lah, i just wanna mantain the current situation now or smtg like that~ Not because of ppls praising me and i am going to action or change or smtg else... NO, not a chance!!

Since today i am quite in a good mood, i took lots of photo. Photo of me. HAH!!! It's been a really long time since i gt the mood to self snapping. Post some funny face here~

Keyboard class is going to start in sunday, and i am so looking forward to that! I wanna learn more!! Even though i know that there's still 4 month left in KL. I wanted to make no regret in my college life. Money is not a matter in this case. =)

PS: My god, unbelieveable... seriously. she read through my blog... Oh god i am so fucking shy >_
Usually she din blog to frequent. mayb in 18 months she only updated 5 articles maximum. But yesterday.... she update two ariticles at the same time. 1st is the Aquarius stuff, and 2nd is the update for some dairy of smtg. She posted comment on my articles... Haiz.... it's like i verbally approve my own penalty sentence and she's like the judge to change that verbally to become a black and white penalty sentence. No hope at all.... GONE~ i'm already gone.... guess what i can only sing Kelly clarkson, already gone....Cos i'm already gone by that time the judge permit and watching me to execute the death sentence..  >_<


Kelly clarkson - already gone

[verse1]
Remember all the things we wanted


Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would have work out right, yeah

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop



[Chorus]
I want you to know

That it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

But someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone


[verse2]

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you wanna cry

It started with the perfect kiss then

We could feel the poison set in

"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go



[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone



Remember all the tings we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye



[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

summary of 27th sept my 21st bday as well as week 1

TATA, from the pic you can see how crazy i am at that day....Since i have already become a man, i have nothing to lose...I guess... I need not to describe that situation... The journey yes... at 11 pm me and Thing reach M.U. Waiting all member to gather and of course Chee How, 26th bday boy... I did do made some preparation that they might be celebrating my bday as well, but i did not expect that they go to lookout point for celebrating... And of course, did not expecting two cakes from secret recipe as well...Ordinary and cheese cake... Unbelieveable...That last pic u can see, i already half naked, on the middle of the road, running at the bottom of the crossover... being recorded, capture two dot of my nipples and being uploaded on FB. Luckily i ask my fren to remove it b4 each and every ppl see it. Haiz....

This year birthday, i must say, the best and unbelieveable as well as most surprising birthday i ever have.. Let's see, i never have a party like others does, i never celebrated by my housemate back at penang because everytime my bday is located at holiday... And i receive short msg sevice from my dear mom wishing me happy birthday, and a facebook email from my dad, wishing me happy birthday as well. I think this is also the first time i receive both blessing from my parents throught the technology....I feel deeply touched....And erm, well~~ 1 more is i receive a sms from the gal i give up hope last few minutes before my birthday's over... Can't say i am on heaven but erm, feels like i get a consolation prize as i still the person she remember my birthday even when she has bf....

This first week is a slow week for me, and for my FYP, i think everything is going smoothly... I have confident that i can make it before prodex~

1st of october is also a heart breaking day at the morning, as the result's is out...Actually there's nothing to fear on whether i pass or fail, like in wall street say, good day i am ok, bad day i am ok... It's just the progress matter. The heart beats i think can reach high to 145 rate during the 3 seconds interval loading the result page... Lucky things is that i pass all... Those 3 dangerous subject which i think in border get B, B and A-... Surprisingly~~~

In just 1 week, i have watched "wall street", "alpha and omega 3D", and "eat pray love". I must say, i waste a lot of money on movie... HAHA!!! The rating of this 3 movie is not high to me. wall street the meaning's too deep, alpha omega is the typical cartoon storyline, eat pray love i cannot learn much on it as i think i still not that age to understand the message of the movie...

Summary, i spent my 1st week play ans spend more than reading... But it is normal since week 1 has nothing much to do...

PS: I've really try my best to keep my distance with you, so please don't try to contact me in the sense of more than a fren that i feel, i give u my bless on u and ur bf... Be Happy, and concentrate on ur study. Complaining and running away from the academic will make ur life in AIMST feels more miserable, so please be positive about ur study in every sense.

Tat's all for week 1 and Happy Birthday sean, FAST FAST go genting showoff to the casino guard!!!HAHA!!!