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Monday, January 18, 2010

in the mid of exam

Now is 3 am tuesday,i am still playing... wednesday will be my math exam paper. the whole night i din do anything. i was lazy. Very lazy... i dunno where should i start my math... But the truth is i am lonely... For now. I never thought that exam would be such a blood sucking day for me. It waa torturing me. Not because of the paper, is the feeling of loneliness. Even after exam i may not have time to rest and then straight have my own internship already.

1当你正在忙的时候,却把手机开着,等着他/她的短信……你已经❤上他/她了 2如果你喜欢和他/她两个人单独漫步……你已经❤上他/她了 3当你和他/她在一起时,你会假装不注意他/她,但是当他/她离开你的视线时,你会急着寻找他/她……你已经❤上他/她了 4当他/她受伤或生病时,你会关心他/她,替他/她着急……你已经❤上他/她了 5当他/她和别人要好时,你会感到吃不知其味…… 你已经❤上他/她了 6当你看到他/她那甜美的笑时,你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑……你已经❤上他/她了 7当你看到这篇文章时,心里想到某个人……你已经❤上他/她了 你有几个预兆?
This i saw in FB post yesterday. Well upon 7, i have 6. So this is the feeling of using 1 palm hand trying to clap...i cant said it was sweet nor bitter either. What i know is, i am desperately trying to focus fully on my study... I mean i am sick of playing on9 game, DOTa, all exist in virtual world. But what am i without games.... everyday juz book, book and book... THAT was a big no no. I want my life here to be a bit more interesting. I am 21 now. Should have many dream to accomplish... But i am totally helpless with myself when facing loneliness problem.

About this time in last year, my ex gf broke with me. as time passed by, i recalled back those words, those action SHE did to me. The heart is still hurt.... It can never be cure by ordinary medicine. I appreciate her action by now as she letting me free. But i still cannot forgive her for creating such a deep wound beneath my heart, together with me all that time with a BIG lie keeping in her heart. Being dishonest to me... And that time when there is "someone" powerful already give sign to me that she had changed her heart... I am still such a fool, being trick by her, believing in her again. Nvm for now, my heart is busy queing now, even i dunno whether she open the door for me to moved in o not, i will wait... I rather wait...At least i tried... I wont regret.

Talking about loneliness, accompanying~ Argh i juz miss diploma where i stayed with my roommate... At that time wasTalking so so fun. Everyday have new activities... I dunno what to say, i juz dont like the feeling stayed at my uncle house. Ntg much i can do. Those stay with roommate, should be able to know what i feel right now. Argh, juz hurry finish this exam.... crap~

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Towards the end of semester 2

Its been really long since i last blog. It cant be help. I have no mood of blogging. I cant find a reason. Mayb sick of the live... Mayb now i am going to follow what the schedule fixed for me, not planning anymore... Tat y i have ntg to mention now....

Or there is 1 more reason, i changed.... Probably.... End up being passive... Gosh i miss myself for being wasting money that time... Since that accident, i cant afford to waste unnecessary money.... Oh yea, i finally been accepted into a company for internship. My frens father company, knowles... it start on 2nd February... I guess....

Since all have been planned, i have ntg to complain but to keep it on. What really unfortunate in this new year is that my new nike shoe being stolen...What a waste...

The exam is coming tomoro ya... Due to boring sickness, i decided to blog a while.... Oh yea, my haird grew really really long... Guess i need to have at least 2 pin on my hair attending the following exam... No mood to give KL ppl cut... especially at wangsa maju section there. Those hair stylist are losing passion, they are not really sincere either... That y i rather let myself being messy from letting them handle my hair... Haiz... Guess i finish what i wanna shared.. I stop here...